I saw him walking towards me and he smiled but I didn't because I remembered the day that he came to my house and I was angry then and I was angry now and all I could think about was how much shorter he was and how I didn't love him anymore which I couldn't explain because I always loved him when I saw him but here he was and I was seeing him feeling no fireworks or passion yet I was trembling and my brow was furrowed and my palms were cold and wet with anxiety when he said hello and hugged me and I couldn't hug back I felt sick and I wanted him to leave but I couldn't ask him to leave because he was here and all I could do was wait for it to be over to cry but I didn't and the tears fell despite my efforts to conceal my emotions from him because he doesn't deserve my emotions he doesn't deserve anything from me even if he was taking pleasure from the presence of me and he was falling deeper in love with me even though I knew that was a waste of his time but time was not his concern as he asked me everything about my life specifically the life I've worked so hard to rebuild after he destroyed everything and took everything and wanted everything and told me I was nothing which is what I felt the entire time I was there I felt nothing except the overwhelming wave of change that became finally real and that was when I knew it was really over and my heart had changed for good.
the future is bright
Sometimes the worst decisions can bring you to a wonderful place.
A place where the air is light and free
Giving life to the forgotten beauty
The lightest Spring rain falls on my shoulders
And I am reborn.
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